SHMILY...

28082004

If only I know what will happen tomorrow,
I will tell you how I feel,
If only I know that you will still be here,
I will tell you how much I care,
If only I know life is too short to be waste,
I will show you how much I love you…….
Now that you are gone forever…
I will be missing you so much…
Hope that you will still by my side…
To give me a hug that I misses all this while…

It has been 3 years and it still hurts...

Agitated...

25082004

Another normal day to work, the only diff is am driving alone instead of the usual two person.Derrick is going to work by himself this morning.A few songs air in Hitz.fm in the morning seems to caught my attention a lot. Dunno why..I was so agitated by the words of this few songs that it nearly cause me my life..as my mind was drifting away to no where when am driving..First was The Reason followed by Someday then, was Here Without You and the final song was this...

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine
I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life
Sent from above
When I lost all hope
You showed me love
Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
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Feeling really thoughtless now.Am going to see him again this sunday after all this while.It makes me misses him so so much....

Bleed Myself to Death...

24082004

Is 0025 when i had a small cut on my toe. Can't imagine that the bleeding can't seem to stop though the time is close to 0200 when am bout to go to bed. But at least the bleeding is not as bad as it firstly was. 0735, woke up and my toe is still bleeding.What is wrong with me? Dunno.. Am I gonna bleed myself to death?..guess so...

Bad day for me. My gastric is still there since yesterday, and the tiny migraine of mine can't seem to go away and this morning woke up with a swollen left eye.Happy 7th Lunar Month everyone..

Oh ya, today is Jo's birthday! Happy Hatching Day to you..Enjoy yourself and we shall catch up soon..

From Me to You..

21082004

Approximately 14 years. That is how long i have come to know a closest friend of mine.Drey, if u r reading this, a very "Happy Birthday" to you. May you be blessed in every aspects of your life.Enjoy yourself in this day of yours. ....We shall meet up after your return from camp, and of course how could I miss out your gift *wink*.....

Night Drive...

19082004

A young lady was rape by two men when she was taking a nap in her car at 0400 in the morning after returning from a pub.This was the news I read in yesterday's Star paper.I was shock with the news.
Am someone who often drives home late night. There are times when I was really sleepy and could not continue driving.The thought of pulling over at the road side to get a nap so that I could get a rest and not dangering others on the road is always on my mind.Think twice, think twice is what i need to do after reading the news.
But which to choose?The possibility of being rape or dangering others' life and your own?

Feels like the color Blue..

18082004

Another day at work..but today feels like the color blue. The cause?? could it be PMS?? don't think so..probably is cause that my sweetheart is going back to where he came from later in the evening.It will be a few days before i can finally see him again.

Read one of my girl's blog the very first thing i reach office.Couldn't have agreed more with what she says."Love with all you have" - that is the best way to love and not expecting anything in return. The other day the topic of 'what would you willing to give up for the name of love' was air in Hitz.fm .. which is pretty ironic where all the callers have only the men/women relationship in their mind. No doubt I will say that am willing to give up my life for the name of love. Don't get me wrong, my love here is for those that I love with all I have - my family , loved ones and of course friends that means wonder to me. It might sounds stupid to include friends some might said, but to me the friendships given from my closest friends are like precious gem - rare and hard to find...

Is time to prepare for meeting..*sigh*

Poor Guy...

17082004

On the way to work in the morning when i saw this accident.Pity the pedestrian who is trying to cross the road.How on earth could that driver knock him down in the early day when the sun is so bright, and on the road where the possibility of speeding is totally out of question.Guess there is no place which is safe enough nowadays.Have to be extra careful in the world today......


Eric if you are reading this, i'm really touch by what you told me about the 'wind' thingy,though is funny but at least you still remember me when you are miles away.Time flies really fast..anticipating the day when we will meet again!!! *hugz*

New Journey...

16082004

Finally been able to catch my breathe again and settle down.Move to a new office where finally get a tiny small corner for myself.Am glad to be in the new place,but is just to comfortable to be working there..after all the hard work, guess is worth it

Yesterday was a very special day.Dedicated to the guy in my life, my dearest, Ted. "Happy Annivesary" and thanks a lot for the lovely poem that you have written just for me.Appreciate that a lot. Am thankful and blessed to have you in my life.

"Thank you for everything that you have given me and being there when i needed you the most"

Another BIG thanks goes to Dan, thanks a lot for giving a tiny space for me in your link..*hugz*

~ Happy Birthday Bro..

13082004

Happy Hatching Day to my elder brother..turning 24 alright.If u r reading this my bro, a very happy wish to you..enjoy ur life ahead.Am lucky to have you as a brother..Love you..

And of coz to a great fren jeremy..same goes to you..a very happy birthday to you..Keep the music going all the way~~

Blessed

11082004 22:06

Blessed to be here, at this day,this hour.Attended an interment in the morning which makes me realise that life is too fragile to be taken granted for.Memories of 3 years back seems to be playing like a film without sound in my mind.How much i miss the two important person in my life.Love you..maybe u find peace in his presence...